~Sabbathcat85

I just feel like talking today, I don't know why, and its all random things that I want to talk about too.
Things like whats been bothering me, or just the fact that I want to tell people about my day(s).
To start with my blathering (yes, its a word. I actually had to look it up to make sure), lets start with recent events.
Yesterday, I went and picked out my pictures that were taken for my senior year. It wasn't just the senior portrait either, it was a bunch of different ones too. They weren't edited yet (like blemishes and other stuff taken out) but I'm going to have to sound vain for a second and say: Holy shit they're beautiful pictures. So we got that done, and after that, I went and hung out with Gabe at his house (of course, that was after Robbie and his brother got kicked out because Gabe's dad didn't have enough food) until 8:40-ish.
In brawl, I'm getting much better. It takes a couple matches for me to get up to par with it and actually do well, but once I do that... watch out. XD "EPIC HIPCHECK OF DOOM TO THE FACE!" Yeaaah... It was random and not planned, but Gabe was going to kill me if I didn't kill him first. I lost all the matches, but I didn't care.

Speaking of games, Crystal got me back into a game called Dark Cloud. I had that game for the longest time, and it was my sister's originally, but she never played it so I did. I got stuck in a limited zone where I played as one of the weakest characters at the time- Xiao. (Now she's one of my better characters because of her long ranged attacks.) I got back into it, and since I walked away from it for a couple years, I was able to beat that level. Crystal then helped me with a boss level (Dran is a bitch to beat). Then I got much farther than her. So far, I have 4 out of 6 characters in the game. Its an addicting game, and I recommend it. After I beat it, I'll take a break from that series, then get Dark Cloud 2 and see how it is.

There've been a few things bothering me. Some I can't talk about, others I can.
Most of what I can talk about are old things such as my mind set, trying to understand the world, trying to understand the actions of others... same old stuff that's been going through my mind since day one. I've noticed that most of these kinds of thoughts only come out when I'm on focus medicine - and I know why its like that. its because my mind is clearer and able to think more smoothly than when its fuzzy and ADD/ADHD filled.
I wish I could people could understand my way of thinking, but its jumbled and really doesn't make sense after reading it or hearing it. Neh, I've given up on trying to explain things.
I also wish I could freeze the world, then go up to every single person that I have even the slightest issue with and scream in there face all the things that bother me about them. I'd feel alot better. But I can't because people have feelings and mishear things and all that other shit.

I think I'm going to stop now and go do something else. Some thing more productive.

Huh. SIXTEEN guy traits... almost half as much more than girl traits.... is that bad? lol nah. it just makes me even more awesome to be around.

I got my laptop back Friday. I almost cried, I was that overjoyed. But I didn't because as soon as I pulled it out of the box, plugged the battery back in and started charging it, I tried to turn it on... and got an error message. Freaked out for a couple minutes before I realized that not even a foot away from me on the table was.... my hard drive. Go dad. So I couldn't even use it really until dad came home, and even then I only used it to do a test run with the new RAM for about an hour before I had to go to the carnival with Crystal. Which was amazing.

This morning, I went to check in for summer school, and the teacher was like "Hold on... I know your name. Don't tell me... you come in every day... a smile always on your face, brightening up the place.... [insert last name here]!" XD I didn't even realize that I smile every day. It boost my day a little.

Later I'll try to upload some stuff.

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UR GUY SIDE:
[x] you love hoodies

[X] you love jeans

[ ] dogs are better then cats

[X] its hilarious when people get hurt

[X] you've played with/against boys on a team

[X] shopping is torture

[ ] sad movies suck

[ ] you own an X BOX 360

[X] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid

[ ] at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter

[X] you own/owned a DS PS2 or Sega

[X] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers

[ ] you watch sports on TV

[x (eh.. depends)] gory movies are cool

[X (only for my laptop)] you go to your dad for advice

[ ] you own like a trillion baseball hats

[ ] you used to/do collect football collector cards

[ ] baggy sweatpants are cool to wear

[X (sometimes)] its kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people

[X] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors

[X] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think

[ ] sports are fun

[X] you talk with food in your mouth sometimes

[x] you sleep at night with your socks on

[X] you have fished at least once
TOTAL: 16


YOUR GIRL SIDE:
[ ] you love to shop

[ ] you wear eyeliner

[ ] you consider cheerleading a sport

[ ] you hate wearing the color black

[X] you like going to the mall

[ ] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures

[ ] you like wearing jewelry

[ ] you cried watching The Notebook

[ ] skirts are a big parts of your wardrobe

[ ] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies

[ ] you are/were in gymnastics

[(15-30 minutes bitches XD)] it takes you around an hour or longer to shower and get dressed

[X] you smile a lot more than you should

[X(and I don't wear half of them)] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes

[X (For the most part)] you care about what you look like

[ ] you like wearing dresses when you can

[x] you wear body spray/perfume

[ ] you constantly say "like"

[x (Combat Boots. Nuff said)] you like high heel shoes

[x >>] you used to play with dolls as a kid

[ ] you like putting makeup on others.

[ ] you like being the star of almost everything

[ ] pink is one of your favorite colors
TOTAL= 7


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So, I decided to be a little like my old get-on-dA-everyday self, and do a little quiz I found.

I. Name 10 significant details about your life so far.

1. Keeping the same goal of being some type of artist since I was 4-5 years old (oh yeah, same goal since kindergarten, go me)
2. Getting my cat, Ruby.
3. Learning who I really am
4. Learning how to cope with CAPD (Central Audio Processing Disorder)
5. Learning how to draw (kinda had to do that if I wanted to be an artist, huh?)
6. Finding out that I wanted to be a comic artist specifically
7. Falling in love
8. Meeting my friends
9. Uhh... moving when I was 4 years old to the place I live now
10. ... living in the same town for 13 years now.

II. What are 10 things you can't live without?

1. Drawing
2. Humor
3. Friends
4. Family
5. Ruby
6. As of 7 months ago, Gabe
7. Oxygen
8. Coffee (well, I could, but I tried to and failed. That was not a good month.)
9. Computers/internet
10. My games

III. What are 10 things you want to accomplish in life?

1. Create a comic book
2. Get through college
3. Sell some arts
4. Improve my art
5. Prove my worth
6. Graduate High School
7. Meet the friends I have made here
8. Get over my fear of cars and learn to drive
9. Get over my fear of planes (being on them or even when they fly overhead)
10. Get a job doing what I love

IV. Name 10 Important traits about yourself

1. I have a strong voice (according to my friend's mom, I could be a great motivational speaker)
2. I'm good at cheering people up
3. I'm good with kids (Okay, seriously, do I have a child magnet in me or something, because any time I'm near them, they all gravitate towards me, and instantly love me for some reason... why?)
4. I'm artistic?
5. I'm semi-good with adapting to my surroundings.
6. I'm understanding for the most part
7. I'm strong-willed
8. I always seem to be able to make a person feel welcomed
9. I'm not quick to judge
10. I can make people laugh

V. What are 10 quotes you like?

1. "Don't take life too seriously, no one comes out alive in the end any way."
2. "The omega position" is a sex move that collapses space time to a single point which then expands and cools to form a new universe! That's why they call it the big bang!" - questionablecontent.net
3. "Its the magical midget!" -Robbie and I
4. "Stop being a wuss. Bring it or take it like the school yard bitch!" - My Mom to me while we were playing a card game called 'Lunch Money'
5. "You two are so skinny!.... friggen' bitches." - KitsuneLeah (she's on deviantart )
6. [Crystal]"Yeah, you'll remember later and call me just to say-" "UTNAPISHTIM!" -Crystal and I at the same time. (We will forever remember that name just because we did that)
7. "Ooh! Missile launcher! I want it! -BAM-" "Game Over."
8. "Humiliation." - Avatar, the Last Air Bender Abridged Series on Youtube
9. "I am an artist, therefore, I suck."
10. "I'll have him know I am a beast with a badger pillow." - Mr. Esoom

VI. What are 10 things about you that most people won't know?

1. People will never be able to understand the contents of my mind.
2. I have an IEP for my CAPD.
3. I was born a little prematurely.
4. Out of a strange habit, I walk on my tip-toes, and its very comfortable for me.
5. I can fight, but only if I really want to and mean it
6. I like the shapes of the body and its not in a sexual way.
7. Its the little things that make me happy
8. I have an overactive imagination
9. I rarely get obsessions
10. I'm on a focus medicine :3

VII. What are 10 songs that describe you?

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Um... I can't think of any, especially without my iTunes

VIII. What are 10 things you love about yourself?

1. My ability to draw people
2. My feets
3. My nose
4. My sense of humor
5. If I can put my mind to it, I can do it
6. My knack of thinking in a different perspective
7. I'm a book worm
8. My creativity
9. My overactive imagination
10. My understanding

IX. What are 10 things you dislike about yourself?

1. My learning disorder
2. My unsatisfiable curiosity
3. My slow pace in school sometimes
4. My procrastination
5. My laziness
6. How hurt I can become over something people would think is insignificant
7. My knack for blowing things out of proportion
8. How easily forgiving I can be
9. I can be very... needy.
10. My own inability to prepare myself for things

X. What are 10 things you would like to change about yourself and the world around you?

1. Stop being lazy and procrastinate-y
2. Stop being so needy of others
3. Learn how to memorize things better
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Okay, can't think of anything else because really... anything I say about how the world should be this way or that, will not be satisfying for another. Besides, it would be kind of selfish for me to want the world to suit me. It would be that whole "the world does not revolve around you" thing.

End.

In other news, EAxis likes to tease its customers. Stupid EAxis.

Ciao.

[NOTE] I CAN'T CHANGE THE EMOTE XD IGNORE IT [/END NOTE]

To update the journal since the last one seemed a little... pessimistic.

Currently, I still have a book list... its more than 3 books, and I have no idea how I'm going to read them all in the time that I want, plus others that I find. Oh the trials of a bookworm.

I also don't have my laptop... again. Once more, it was the power supply that killed it. Or more specifically, the connectors in the laptop got messed up, and has to be fixed. So its in California some where in the HP company's repair shop of sorts being fixed. I have NO idea when I'm getting it back, hopefully by next Tuesday since it was sent out this Tuesday... at least, that's what I'm guessing based on past experiences with sending my baby away. And this time, I took my game disc out before it died completely so that I wouldn't have to deal with buying a new expansion pack just to play my game.

Speaking of the Sims 2... (EDITED STUFF)
I had put this whole rant about a software protection device called SecuROM and all the things I was worried about because of all the horror stories about it destroying computers. Apparently... I already had it on my computer thanks to Teen Style Stuff Pack and the Free Time expansion pack. I've had no problems with them, so I have no worries now. My next worries are however, the new SecuROM system that apparently does more damage than the old one. The new expansion pack that's coming out "Apartment Life" has the new system and that makes me sad because I kinda wanted it... especially since its a partial remake of Sims 1: Makin' Magic. Makin' Magic was unbelievably euphoric... if that even makes sense. I don't even know if I used those words correctly. I'm awesome, no? XD So, I give a big thanks to "SimCrazed32" on [link] for helping me ^^
Gotta love researching games.

In other news, art wise, I have arts to upload and will do so once my laptop is back.

Btw, summer school for biology isn't that bad. I have learned more in the past 4 days than I have in an entire semester of that class. And I'm only there for about two hours a day. Also, I'm rather proud of myself for something: I apparently have level 4 responses for BCRs. In my previous biology class, I always got anywhere between a level 2 to 3 and yet I did everything about the same in this class and Mrs. P said I had excellent level 4 responses and gave her exactly what she was looking for. O o Its weird, but I'm proud.

Yeah, I'm babbling at this point.
Well, I can't think of anything else to write now, so... cya. XD

I honestly can't promise to update anymore, but that doesn't mean I'll stop updating.
I'm extremely lazy, trying to maintain a life outside the nice cozy box of the intarwebz, and trying to get done everything I want to get done.
School is out soon (after today, Friday, I only have Monday and Tuesday which are only half days, then I'm free), but I don't know if that will increase chances of me uploading more art.
I have art to upload, one piece I'm extremely proud of which I dubbed "Death at the Ballet." but like I said, I'm extremely lazy.
I still have a lot to do that are both needs and wants of mine. They inclued:
+3-5 books I need to finish reading/start reading.
+Draw at least two more pages of Partners in Crime (redid the first page for the 4-5th time, turned out a lot better) to get myself motivated more
+Draw more with Copics
+Do some of the drawing list Mr. Sharp gave me for the summer

There's alot more, but I can't think of it as of now.
Currently, I'm typing during school, first mod... 8:40 something 'cause I'm not taking a final, I had an alternative project that I will be handing in on Monday.

So like I said before, you'll still see art, but I'm in and out on deviantart, slower than ever.
I'm sorry guys... my life became busier.... :/ I still love all of you, that I promise.
And with that, I leave to go do other things, probably draw while people take an exam... xD

Chao.
Poodles.